Whats happening...

Well, the school year is winding down, so that's good. My class is going well, but I don't know where I'll be next year. My principal doesn't want me back, so I'll be job hunting. She observed me on consecutive days a few weeks back. I'm not sure what type of growth and improvement she expects to see on consecutive days, but then again, she didn't hire me. Unfortunately, there is a hiring freeze in the county, due to major cuts in Florida's education budget. I'll finish out the year and try to get a new job. If all else fails, I can at least move (not tied to a lease) somewhere else, or just go back to O2b Kids.

Personally, things are going pretty well. I've been seeing someone for a few weeks now, and she's a nice girl, cute and quirky. I don't know how long it will last, but I'll be patient and we'll see. I'm in no rush to do anything. Marriage and kids will be great, but I'll have to know her for years before any of that stuff happens. I've started eating a little better. I don't wish to be small or whatever, but I'd like to remain healthy, and I just feel drawn to a more naturalistic lifestyle. Aren't we made to be omnivores? Nuts, berries, meat, etc. are good things we've eaten forever. I've just cut out processed stuff like coke, breads, and other things that aren't straight from the Earth. I'm not becoming a uber-health nut by any means, but I feel eating simpler things is just right.

I don't know if all our technology and "easy, rich" lifestyle is worth what we all have to do to keep it going. How do we really benefit from going to work 8 hours a day at something we may like, but feel we have to go to? I love kids, and I'm making more money than I ever have before, but for what we literally get from the effort isn't all that much. I've simplified it down to air conditioning (and heat) and being able to travel long distances quickly. We work to get money for what: a place to live, a car, food, and other non-essential things, right? A place to live is something we could build (with help)--at least an open-air shelter. So we do all this work and pay all this money for what: enclosed walls and control over the temperature inside. If I could give that up in exchange for not having to work a daily job, I'd do it in a second. We can grow our own food, trade excess to others for what they grow or produce. Hell, MOST of the world still works this way. Our rich, "better" method stinks. Yes, I can go to the store in my car (which I work a daily job to pay for and maintain) and get any fruit, meat, or processed good I desire. Would I give that up and live a life of eating the same few things if it meant I didn't have to go to a daily job? Of course!

I realize I'm probably in the minority, and that the simpler, "tribal" lifestyle is a bit romanticized, but I still feel it would be better for me. Why don't I move down to Costa Rica and start it up? Well, the people I care about are here, my family and friends. I have been raised in this culture and would find it very tough to immediately switch to a more natural lifestyle. And I'm a big wuss about it, too. If I did leave this all behind to live in a jungle, eating bugs, living under a hut, my biggest concern would be my dad's reaction. Not that I require his approval for things, but I feel he's endured enough stress and unpleasant things in his life that I just couldn't produce another stunning moment. Maybe I'll have the gall to do it once he's not around.

Thats all for now. You must think I'm REALLY weird by now. Oh well. Weird isn't bad, its just a bit different. Variety is good, especially genetically! Survival! k bye.