Ah jeez...
3 joys: My students. Nothing has ever gotten in the way of the joy I feel with my class. Not testing or administration, bad behavior, or bad parenting. The kids provide joyous moments every day. Usually they are little things, and well...the kids are little, so it fits.
Making people laugh/smile, etc. Its fun to do, whether you know them or not. I like seeing how many laughs I can get them to string together. Or also to do something kind for someone without there being any possibility of them finding out it was you. They'll then chalk it up to the world, or karma or whatever, and maybe think the world isn't so bad all the time. That's big.
When an old-school song comes on and everyone starts singing it. It wasn't a cool song back in the day, and no one's ever claimed to like the band, but every single person knows every single word...and everybody's yelling it out.
3 Fears.......Kinda that I'll never grow up. I mean, I think its good to always have some childishness in you. But I mean like having a grown-up wardrobe or a classically-furnished home. I don't like those things, they 're not me. Maybe they will be someday, but not anytime soon. And I'm almost 30...so ya.
I'm afraid that I'll one day settle for someone to avoid being alone. I've been good not to do that so far, but when I'm older, I think it will be harder to avoid dating and marrying someone I get along with okay, but not someone I need to be with forever. I'm okay with not ending up with someone, but I wonder if I'll always be so comfortable with that possibility.
That I'll never be the best me. Like that I'll never have a true peak, but a long enduring plateau. Shouldn't I at least try to be the best possible me for a few years before it becomes harder to do so? I mean be fit, festive, hard-working, accumulating wealth, etc. I live life as conveniently as possible, so it doesn't make for many upswings (or downturns).
3 Goals: I want to live in the Keys someday. It doesn't have to be indefinitely, but I think living down there would be agreeable to me.
I want to go to Bora Bora....not because its a random tropical paradise, but because its physically the most unique place I've ever seen and to actual witness it and be there would be epic. It would be enduring.
I'd like to help produce excellent human beings coming out of kindergarten. I hope to teach them how to be quality people, and that I may know how they end up when they grow up. It would be neat to hear any success stories of past students. It will be awhile until that is possible, but there was no timeline limits on this:)
3 obsessions/collections?
well I left any and all collections behind in FL. I'm a little obsessed with baseball and its statistics.
I'm obsessed with how things came to be this way. I have sought out knowledge about prehistory and how to identify and remedy our societal issues since finishing college. Its something that always weighs on me and I've got a huge interest in, only in the past few years.
I'm obsessed about why poeple aren't better. Now I'm not great by any means...but I just don't have the capacity to understand some people. Parents who don't give a damn about their own child. Violent criminals, etc. Someone put a baby in a microwave a few months back and just got sentenced. Where do you have to be in life for an idea like that to even enter your brain, and then do it? Isn't something wrong when its even possible? Don't there need to be drastic changes in ALL parts of our culture to ensure a better tomorrow? We'll have a quicker, lighter, easier, informative tomorrow.........but will it be better? Can we do anything to make it better?
3 Facts about Me....
I'm laid-back. Like exteremely. I don't TRY to be this way, its just comfortable. I don't get worked up over things. I don't make things dramatic or assume things happen with bad intentions. Getting upset never helps end the issue. I think seeing how frustrated and angry my dad got at every little thing showed me its no way to endure life.
I try to be as nice as possible. I'm fortunate that doing bad or doing the wrong thing feels foreign to me. I've tried bad things and acted wrongly to see what it was like, and it felt bizarre and I had no desire to try again. Being nice is easy and it spreads the goodness. I do feel bad for those people to whom badness is easy or fun. They might try avoiding it, but if its easy, they may do it w/o even meaning to. That's scary. I wish everyone had an aversion to doing bad.
I'm not a very good boyfriend. I found this out this past year. I'm so used to being single that when in a relationship, I feel crowded. I don't want to see someone every single day, just to hang out and do nothing. If I come over to their place, it should be to go out and have fun or whatever. I don't like making out and stuff, then continuing to sit around and hang out for hours on end. I prefer seeing someone once every few days. When we meet, it should be for a reason. I don't like doing nothing with someone, I prefer to do nothing by myself. I know this sounds strange. But I did feel like she was clingy, when she really wasn't. She was great. I just think I need more practice. I don't know. Maybe I'm institutionalized (so used to one thing,that something different is too hard....for now). Maybe I just need to find someone I can't stand to be away from. We'll see.
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I enjoyed all of your comments. I wish everyone had an aversion to do evil as well. But, in order for there to be balance in the world and freedom, there must be good and bad. So, unfortuntately, there is pain and heartache and bad people. But, we learn from those experiences and people. If we didn't have pain we would not understand or appreciate joy and love and goodness.
About the relationship stuff, I totally understand. You feel so much more unproductive doing nothing with someone than just by yourself. And when there is nothing to do you tend to do dumb stuff. However, I am the type that wants to see or hear from that special someone quite often. It is those little affirmations of love that I like.
Well I didn't want to see her less, just have fun, quality time together. She didn't like mushy talk or anything. I don't think she was good at receiving it maybe...I don't know.
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